$1/$2 killed me this week and .50/$1 was not too much better. The week was going decent before yesterday, but in the end it was a loss for the week. I am pretty disgusted with myself and the weekly results. After a run at Pokerroom I decided to try Poker Stars once again. I'll play there until my next temper tantrum where I cashout and try a different site. LOL I ended up about $40 down. This was pretty bad considering i was uo about $60 or $70. No one to blame but myself. I keep playing in the next higher limit and due to most likely timid play or just bad luck I take a beating. Once again I am forced to drop down to .50/$1. My bankroll discipline continues to be non existent. I have all these grandiose plans about what I'll do and when I'll do it and every week it's the same. i disregard it all and do what I should not be doing. Why continue on with this facade of turning pro? It's not going to happen when I can't even show the discipline of bankroll management. I will never make it without it, so why even bother to try anymore. I am really disgusted with myself. I want to wait until I have a bankroll of $1000 before going to $1/42 and in my heart I mean it, but as soon as I get $500 or so there I am in $1/$2. I am so pathetic sometimes it sickens me. Once again i will try to remain focused and within my limits and once again i will probably fail. I always do. Maybne one day something will snap in me and i will realize I have no choice, but to do things the correct way and the disciplined way. I'd like to think that day starts today, but you cvan't lie to yourself. I will try, but I'm not holding my breath over it. Bankroll: $462.65

Source: StarlightCoast --- The Road To Pro